Blogging to me has always been therapeutic for my peace of mind and a palliative for relieving frustrations when I am able to express openly about how I think and feel about a certain subject, person or story.
The contentment it gives me to have opined on something is what I value most as it seems to unshackle me from the absurdity that some people and events want to tie me up with and be constantly reminded about how senseless the affair of the nation has become and how insensitive our public officials/public servants have become, even to include the meddling from the officials of the Catholic religion.
Whether my thoughts and sentiments gratify or displease those following my blog or who stumbles upon it, one thing sure is that people will always have varied reactions. But, whatever the result, I always appreciate your follow and your comments as it is you that has kept me going all these years.
No, it is not the SC judgment declaring constitutional the online libel in the Cybercrime Prevention Act that has made me decide to call it quits, although the timing may be there. Frankly, am too old to be scared by that.
I am, however, psyching up myself now for a more serious therapy involving my physique when I will undergo a knee replacement surgery pretty soon.
Even as I write now, I feel discomfort and pain in my right knee, and more so upon standing up. Climbing and walking down stairs are agonizing routine. But I can’t just be in one position most of the time. I got to move and do something else. The ache almost always numbs my concentration.
I think somewhere in the pile of blogs that I wrote, I mentioned about my bum knee which had been operated on before due to a meniscus tear, a common injury to the cartilage that stabilizes and cushions the knee joint.
But, unlike today’s medical technology wonders where a non-invasive surgery could be performed and the injury repaired, I got mine opened up and the damaged part cut. Though it got healed in time, the impulsiveness of youth, however, took it for granted using and abusing it, even putting at risk my left knee – in work, in jogging, in playing tennis and even at brisk walking in latter years – and now it is taking its toll as age has caught up with me and the body no longer that nimble.
With my left leg, I stand 5’10”, but with my right leg standing I am 5’9”, and I leave it up to your imagination as to how I walk. The long years of disproportionate use of my legs, coupled with my lower back problem incurred in lifting heavy weights, has taken a considerable toll on my lower skeletal structure.
I hobble and before my left knee gets any worse and drops me crawling, I might as well get it fixed now, or forever I will bear that pain till the end. If there will still be quality of life awaiting, no matter how short its going to be, I’ll take it, rather than be left guessing as to how it could have been. Wish me luck.
I need no pity for I did it all thoughtlessly, recklessly and willingly. This quote from J.K. Rowling of the famed Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix sums it all up: Youth cannot know how age thinks and feels. But old men are guilty if they forget what it was to be young.
Thank you all for being a part of my blogs.
I wish each and every one of you the best.
I’ll see you when I see you – if ever.